Sunday, May 11, 2008
A New Dawn, err Don, err... what-the-F-ever
So you've all heard the story by now, but yeah, Cindy got Nathan and Jessica to fly down unbeknownst to me. It was fabulous. I really couldn't have gotten a better gift. I just wished there was a way to spend it with my family as well, but it's just a birthday. There are more to come. And, my friends are my surrogate family... but you know what I mean. And I just want to thank all of you who sent me a gift or a card. Thank you all for thinking of me, OH and those who posted on my MySpace. I'm really bad at responding but I got your birthday wishes and it means a lot.
I thought my body was reacting to some kind of subconscious anxiety about turning 30. So I attempted to face that anxiety and dig up some demons. What I did find, well I shared with you all in my last post. Odd thing though, my body hasn't really gotten better. My muscles are achey and tense and stiff, my stomach feels like it's all knotted up, and today my effing Rosacea or whatever skin thing I have has flared up again.
These are symptoms of anxiety for me. Yet, I cannot for the life of me figure out what the heck I'm anxious about. I don't feel emotionally anxious. In fact, I feel pretty blessed. I have my dream car. I live in sunny California. I really like my job. There's some great things happening with DG. My friend Paige just moved down. My house is awesome. Marriage seems fine and the dogs are happy. (I'll double check with Cindy about the marriage thing, but I'm pretty sure she'd have told me by now if something was up). What the crap do I have to be anxious about?
So I'm going to schedule an appointment tomorrow with the doctor and find out what the crap is going on and get a physical and all that. I just got one for the new life insurance we just bought, and everything checked out great. My cholesterol is great (better than Cindy's. ha!) Blood sugar seems fine, doesn't look like I'm on a path to diabetes or anything. I could certainly use more exercise, but couldn't we all.
I'll let you know how all that goes.
Today we went out with Paige down to Venice Beach. It was fun. Check Cindy's blog soon I'm sure she'll post some pictures. Oh yeah, maybe not. Our laptop has crashed. We called tech support and looks like we are still under warranty, so I'm running tests and it looks like the hardware is okay, just might need to reinstall the operating system or something. So Venice Beach was cool and we got to meet some friends of Camille and Matt's who live down there, Ben and Mary. You probably saw pictures of Mary on Cindy's blog when they went on that hike. Someday I'll get invited to one of those. Anyway we're all going roller skating tomorrow night with Ben and Mary and Paige and us. Again, I could use the exercise and hey, we're getting out! It's nice to have a friend like Paige who is a great instigator of getting out and doing something!
On the professional front, I have a trade show in Long Beach and a big sales meeting that coincides with it next week. Should be interesting. The trade show is for the aerospace industry I think, which I don't know much about so it will be a great learning experience. I've set some professional goals. By June 1st, my goal is to be making 10 calls a day. That's a seriously lofty goal, but I'm almost there. It just takes a lot of planning. Okay, so maybe that's a little high, but I'm shooting for 40-50 calls per week. Right now I'm about half that. I've picked up a few things in the past couple months though, and I think I can do it.
I'm also thinking about joining a gym. There's one just down the street from us. Need to find a partner to join with me though. I don't think Cindy and I would work out at the same time of day, otherwise that would be awesome. Wish me well on that.
Thursday, May 1, 2008
T-Minus... Whatever
Mastered forklift driving in a cold storage
Graduated Cum Laude with a self-funded education
Learned Ancient Greek
Went to
Co-starred in a play performed at the
Learned to drink beer (in
Woke up several mornings without my pants, and no recollection of how they came off
Woke up in an alcohol rehabilitation clinic in
Slept on the streets of
Kissed a Greek/Argentine girl
Woke up with a Greek/German girl in my bed one morning, discovered we were both clothed and I was still a virgin.
Stood on the shore of the edge of infinity with my friends at 3am in
Watched two of my spiritual mentors and pastors get ousted from their congregations
In my application process to go into the ministry, was told by the church that I had too much debt and to come back when I had less
Decided not to become an ordained minister until God says otherwise
Helped found an independent film company called Dead Gentlemen Productions (DG)
Directed and produced a feature digital movie
Helped create one of DG’s most memorable characters, Silent Jim
Filmed a demon resurrection ritual being performed on an actual alter
Kissed my best friend between takes of said ritual
Produced and managed Dead Gentlemen’s biggest film yet, “The Gamers: Dorkness Rising”
Was appointed Manager of Dead Gentlemen Productions
Operated Dead Gentlemen Productions’ online commerce
Initiated, negotiated and closed a distribution deal with the largest gaming publisher in the nation.
Made friends with the largest names in the hobby game industry
Played D&D regularly with the designers and writers of D&D
Married my best friend
Learned the marine industry from scratch
Became a professional in the fiberglass industry with no formal training
Managed a facility and employees
Promoted, moved to
Graduated with the championship award from my sales training class
Bought my dream car
Contracted salmonella. Twice.
So far, can’t name one enemy.
Lived on friends’ couches for about 6 months
Was propositioned by 7 hookers in one night
Negotiated and facilitated a role playing game based on DG’s first films, Demon Hunters
Can call several designers and writers for Dungeons and Dragons (past, present or otherwise) close personal friends.
------------Well, now I'm starting to feel like I'm boasting. I can say though that after all this time and all that has happened:
- My wife is still my bestest friend
- My friends are my family
- My family are my best friends (that's literal by the way)
- My grandfather is still my hero
- My regrets don't matter
- Next to my wife, my sister, my mother and my grandmother are the most amazing and strongest women in my life
- God still believes in me
- I love my job
- I'm ready for what's next and I'm planning for it
So in order to dispel all that, I'm going to print here for all the world to see what I haven't told many people. Of course my thought is that by recognizing it, then it won't actually happen because I'm consciously and reasonably presenting to everyone who would read this and hold it accountable.
For more than half my life, I've held some kind of belief that my life will end in some kind of explosion/combustion/ball of fire, before I'm 40 years old. This belief started when I had three separate and different dreams where I died in some kind of explosion, and I remember those dreams to this day, and I remember feeling the explosion.
There, I've said it, I've PRINTED it, and I can't take it back. So here's to outliving my life insurance policy, and to seeing just exactly how long I can stretch both sides of my family's longevity. Unfortunately, my teeth regardless do not hold the same life expectancy. I'll cross that bridge when I get to it. Yes, that's a pun.
F this S in the A. I'm going to bed. Godspeed, and don't get run over.